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I am about to lose my mind!! (not thatthere was much to lose BUT) Angeline has definately needing her meds adjusted or something... She has done nothing but lie about everything,and is basically back to herself before she started concerta for the adhd and the celexa for the depression.We caught her stealing over the weekend, and she refuses to listen to a word I tell her,it goes in one ear and out the other. The ONLY one she listens to is her dad. (Dave). I was thinking maybe its because of the babies, and she is having a hard time adjusting to it all and is showing it by acting out. But in the same sense, when we first took her to see Dr Armendariz and he diagnosed her with the adhd,depression,seperation and anxiety disorder,odd and ocd then started her on the meds, we seen a totally different Angeline. She was well behaved, listen and done what she was told, basically a perfect angel. Now I swear she has done sprouted another head and gone all sorts of evil..She is not due to go back to see the Dr until March. I am wondering if I can call and get her in to see him sooner..

Sunday we found out that the first friend she had ever made had passed away. Savannah was the first child she trusted. Savannah is well was a non speaking austic lil girl,but yet those 2 would play very well together at school i was told by Savannah's "helper" (the woman who stayed with her throughout the day while at school) Heres what happened, where her family lives there are several ponds that surround their property,and Savannah & her 2 brothers were outside playing and she wondered off. When her  older brother found her she had allready drowned. The younger brother was also found in the pond but the helmet he had on,saved him and the styrafoam inside the helmet kept him afloat. he was rushed to Childrens @ ou in med center in okc for precautionary measures.  It was late sunday when I found out and Angeline was in bed. I kept thinking of how it wasbest to tell Angeline,it was something I dreaded having to do, I mean come one,its not every day that you tell your 6yr old that her friend has passed away. Dave and I decided that it was best to just tel her, it was better for her to hear from us than some other children at the school. Monday morning after she was dressed I sat her down and started to explain. She teared up and just sat on the couch for  awhile being quiet. A few minutes pass and she jumps up with a big smile and says this...."Mommy, it will okay,Savannah will be ok, Grandma Berts and Nana will take care of her in heaven until her mommy n daddy get there." It took everything in my body to not bust into tears while talking to Angeline but hearing that,I could not help it.

With that being said, I am also guessing that news isnt helping Angeline any.. I just am at my wits end on what to do with the girl. I can only think of doing a couple of things, which are is to get her into see the psychiatrist (dr. armendariz) and see if he thinks she needs her meds adjusted or if there is anything else we can do, AND tell her counselor and "play" therapist to see if they can help as well.  It couldnt hurt right?!?

ON ANOTHER NOTE................

The ex jackass happened to have a brain fart and remember he has kids and called. He VERY VERY briefly talked to Angeline, I say very briefly because the entire conversation lasted less than 20 seconds, and he didnt even ask to talk to Toni. Then he proceeded to attempt to talk to me. I told him I had nothing to say to him,and didnt want to waste my time or his and that set him off. He started yelling and saying that he was going to take me to court because I kept the kids from him. HELLLLO! I was granted full physical and legal custody of the children in the divorce, any contact was at MY discretion. The judge also granted a personal protection order against him, but me being the nice person, I told him he could call the kids if he wanted to on mondays and thursdays at 730. HE was the asshat who chose not to call them anymore and he chose to stop paying child support. I have NEVER kept the kids from him.  We had a court hearing on the 17th,and of course he didnt show. I didnt have to appear, the  attorney went on my behalf. Needless to say he didnt appear, so I won by default. He is behind thousands in child supprt and is avoiding getting a job so he doesnt have to pay me anything. I also found out that he tried to claim the girls on his income tax, but somehow they found out that he was the non custodial parent and didnt have a form signed by me stating he had my permission to claim them and it all back fired in his face!  Well, now there is a motion filed to garnish wages when he does get a "real" job,and also they are going to garnish the small amount of a paycheck he does get from cleaning the building where his mother works.  We are looking into having his parental rights revoked, so that Dave can finally adopt the girls. For the last 2 years he has been the father that they never really had, and poor Toni wants it so bad, she is allready wanting to use his last name,all her school papers she writes her name as Toni Clark. As far as the child support goes, I dont care if I start receiving it again or not. I have proved to myself and everyone else that I can take care of the girls on my own, without his help. I have and will continue to do it! I dont need or want his money.

The babies are doing great, its hard to believe that tomorrow they will be a month old allready. They are doing well, we went for a well baby check and Embree is now 7lbs6oz. ( a lb and 5 oz more than her birth weight) and Kaylee is 7lbs 1oz. ( 2 lbs and a few oz more than her birth weight) I have taken a ton of pics but am seriously needing to upload them..
I have a question, it may be TMI but after i had the babies I had my tubes tied. What I was wondering if any of you have had this done and how long did the bleeding last? After toni n angeline it only lasted a week and tmw its been a month and I am still having the bleeding. Could it be that I had my tubes tied that I am still bleeding or the fact that there were 2 babies and more than normal and take a bit longer? I do not have a follow up appt with my ob for 2 more weeks n I was growing curious...

3 weeks! WOW!!!

So its officially been 3 weeks since the babies were born, and all I can say is DAYUM its rough getting adjusted to having not one but two new babies in the house. I completely forgotten what its like! In the time since we have been home, we have gone thru about 200 diapers! Shocking huh? I am extrememly grateful for the baby showers and the many gifts of diapers! We still have 4 cases of newborns diapers yet to be opened and also about 10 or more packages  of various sized diapers. I am simply amazed at how many we have used.But I am seriously loving it,the diaper changes,the freshly bathed baby smell,EVERYTHING!! I do have one complaint! It seems every single time we are out and about, we get asked, are they twins? Our response,Yes, (even tho I wanna be a smart ass and say nope we just went to the hospital & stole someone else baby and dress them alike)The next question is Are they identical, Our response,No. They are fraternal. Their next question is how can ya tell em apart?  And the final question is are they both boys? Geez people, they are sitting in PINK car seats,have headbands or bows in the hair,and are wearing PINK OR PURPLE clothes! What do you think? Why yes, they are boys, we just want them to grow up being drag queens!  I told Dave one day that I wanted a shirt made up that said "Yes they are twins, NO they are not identical,YES they are GIRLS" I know people with twins must get frustrated with all the questions that random strangers ask.I know I do! I mean come on,use some common sense people! Dont get me wrong I love my babies, but sometimes the attention we get when we are in public is nerve wracking!!!  There have been some realllllly sweet people we have met, who had offered some awesome advice,and have just been sweet.  I am defiantely sleep deprived! the babies average waking up every 2-3 hours for diapers or bottles and i am ashamed to say that I have raised my voice with Dave, cause it seemed that he was sleeping on purpose and not wanted to help with the babies,but he was honestly knocked out cold. I was just upset that it seemed I was doing all the work in the middle of the night, BUT shame on me, Dave said there have been a few times where the role was reversed & I was the one who was sleeping n he got up with the girls. I felt sooo awful I cried.I did apologize and he said it was ok, but I felt and still feel terrible!
Dave had 10 days of paternity leave and I was sad to see him go back. He has been super dee duper with helping with the babies. Hes done everything! I know its wrong,but I secretly compared him to how the ex asshat was with the older girls when I had them. I had to do everything, all he was good for was holding then and playing with them when they got older and he wasnt intoxicated. Lord knows I didnt dare tell Dave what I had thought. It would have hurt his feelings.

Sooooo one of the babies is awake and its my clue to get off here.. Love ya Peeps! I am sorry I have been quiet n not very talkative, I will try to be more active.. I am not ignoring anyone..