I Know Something You Dont!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok, there is been a really big secret I have been keeping from all of you. Well not just my friends but my family as well.. Its nothing bad by any means,I just cant hold it in anymore.  I myself am still  in some sort of shock, but I trully honestly believe this was the best most wisest descision I could have ever made. Last time I done it for all the wrong reasons and  at the time my family EVERYONE told me it was a bad bad mistake. Needless to say I did not listen and they were right. But anyway, here goes............Ya ready? Good cause I am!

December 28,2010 Dave & I got married!!  We were gonna wait until after the babies were born and have a decent church wedding,but many things just kept happening and we figured if we didnt do then, it would never happen. We went to the court house and done the J.O.P. thing and it was over with. We kept it really low key. It was crazy to do it without telling anyone but we have our reasons as to why it was done that way. 

 I honestly believe he is the one for me,I can be myself around him and not live in constant fear of being hit or screamed at because I done something wrong, or couldnt keep the kids quiet. I dont have to worry about any of the abuse I endured during my last marriage. The ONLY good things to have come out of that marriage were my girls! Dave is everything I always wanted for myself but never in a milion years pictured I Would have. He loves me for ME! He accepted my girls with open arms and has expressed in officially adopting them. The girls have loved him from day 1 and have always called him Daddy. He is the father they never had. I had my doubts and concerns about them meeting,but its a move I do not regret. He puts us and his older kids from his 1st marriage before himself. He is generally a wonderful man! I love and have accepted his children as my own. My life is finally complete! I feel so much at peace with Dave. I now know the meaning of happiness! I still have a hard time accepting everything about Dave. Its like its too good to be true! I keep waiting to wake up from this dream. I really let the years of mental abuse with Anthony get to me, He had me believing that I Was a no good piece of crap who would never amount to anything,or never "be enough of a woman to make any man happy"

 The ironic thing is that I met Dave back at Stewart. We had breifly met thru Anthony one day and had seen each other from time to time.. Unfortunately he & asswipe were in the same unit in Korea and Stewart. We had always been civil saying helllo when seeing one another,but it was always left at that. Late winter of 2009, I was online talking to a good friend and she had mentioned a friend of her and her hubby that was deployed and welll to make a long story short, Dave & I were reunited.. We started our relationship online,(corny I know!) and exchanged phone calls emails and countless im's during the course of his deployment. We made plans to meet up during his r&r over the summer. I thought it was never progress to anything other than friendship.But during r&r and after he returned to Afghanistan, things turned for the better. I figured it wouldnt work out due to him being stationed at ft campbell and I lived in Ok.

BUTTTTTTT, he was up for reenlistment and was able to get Ft Sill.. He re-upped and after deploying home, he wasnt due to pcs until nov of 2010,but things worked out and the pcs was final in May! Lets just say the rest is history!!

We are waiting for a bit to tell our families,as sad as it is, My own father doesnt know we got married and he lives in my house with us. My dad knows we are planning on getting married one day but he is clueless as to when. I know my dad isnt stupid and probably has his suspicions. But we are happy and thats all that matters, right? We are planning on telling everyone after the girls are born that we got married. 

After my divorce, I told myself that I was never going to get married again. If every marriage was like my first, I wanted nothing more to do with the crap!! I was content with being single. I was focused on raising my girls and being home with my family, where I always belonged but ran away from. Yeah I was young and dumb! Dave came along and shown me that there really are good men out there, and they are not all the same.

I am once again a military wife, and as weird as it sounds, its so much different this time around! Its awesome! I am 200% happy with my life, and every aspect of it.. Like I said, I am complete! I just wanted to clue my closest friends on my "secret"! I must ask you of one favor, please dont say anything about it on my FB,as to the majority of my family is on there and we are not ready for them to know.  They will know soon enough!

Here I am STILLL PREGO!!!!!!!

Ok Sillio.. I got it.. heres my blog!!!!!
I am 36wks 5 days prego with these babies.. I never thought I would make it this far! I figured I Would have delivered by now.. I have a few friends who are mommies of twins & by now they had allready given birth. Why must I be the exception? LMAO But seriously I am suprised I am still round with babies. GIven the complications I am honestly shocked! This by far has been the most difficult pregnancy! With the older girls, I had no complications and the pregnancy was a breeze! I bet if the twins were first I definately wouldnt have wanted anymore kids.  I will not complain any more. The twins by far are a precious gift from above and I am excited and cant wait another week to finally be able to hold them... Wednesday I go in for my last appt,Thursday or Friday should be the big day!! Unless by some strange chance they decide they wanna come out before then,but even with the gentle encouragement from me,they are notwanting to budge!

lol ok getting confused from going back n forth from here and FB.. so toodles for now!